Journal
Joshua’s jots from journeys Along the Grain
The Eternal Dance of Fire and Water
Daoism is often regarded as the most humble of traditions because its focus lies not on dominating or achieving but on aligning with the natural process and flow of life. It teaches harmony with the way things are—the Dao—by observing how nature effortlessly fulfills its purpose.
The Nature of Fire and Water
Consider fire: its natural inclination is to rise, expand, and consume. It seeks to engulf its surroundings and ascend toward the sky. Water, on the other hand, flows downward, seeking the lowest point where it can rest. It follows the path of least resistance, moving with effortless grace toward stillness and balance.
In a culture dominated by the qualities of fire—passion, ambition, and upward movement—we need the balancing influence of water. Historically, matriarchal societies, often described as “cultures of water,” turned to fire-based religions to bring balance with qualities of focus, clarity, and ascent. Conversely, in today’s patriarchal “culture of fire,” we must learn from water: how to cool the mind, lower ourselves, and follow the flow to balance the extremes of heat and ambition.
The Cycle of Transformation
Fire does not rise indefinitely. At its peak, it transforms. The heat of fire expands to form clouds, which cool and fall as rain. This rain nourishes the earth, allowing trees to grow. The trees eventually return to fire as ash, which enriches the soil. The minerals from this soil seep into deep caverns, enriching water sources. This water rises again to nourish the land, completing an eternal cycle of fire, air, water, and earth (plus the in-between).
This cycle reflects the unending rhythm of life: nothing exists in isolation, and everything transforms to sustain the whole.
The Lesson of Days and Cycles
Now, consider the days of the week. Does Monday ever complete its purpose and then declare itself finished? No. Monday fulfils its role and returns the following week, just as every other day does. Our perception might assign more importance to certain days, like Friday or Saturday, but each day has its own role in the eternal rhythm.
When you learn to recognize the process and flow within these cycles, they no longer feel oppressive. Instead, they offer freedom. By embracing the cosmic order—the rise and fall, the high and low, the fire and water—you live in harmony with the rhythms of life. You work with them, rather than against them, allowing the natural balance to carry you forward. You begin to walk along the grain.
What are books without the hands?
Without the hands, books are merely objects, lifeless without interaction. It’s the feeling, the intimacy, that transforms them — making each book an experience rather than just a thing. The connection develops as you hold the book, shaping a relationship that deepens over time. At first, you examine its exterior, drawn in by its form. But as you turn each page, feeling its texture and grain beneath your fingers, the book ceases to be just an object. It becomes a presence. This tangible, physical artefact begins to transcend its identity, blossoming into a spiritual relationship between two resonant beings. In those moments, the book and the reader — two vibrating carbon bodies — sync, resonating on the same level for however long this shared experience unfolds.
Through time and touch, by feeling its shape and contours, you start to see the book’s true essence. Each interaction leaves an imprint, each layer of experience and learning adding to the depth of this bond. The grooves and textures match and deepen, becoming richer every time your hands meet its form.
What do your hands know of intimacy?
Too exhausted to write
Today when I was stewarding the gate. All giddy at first, high spirits letting the hands show the way and the voice lead after. Appreciating the weather and people's smiles. But as I’ve come to the end I’m too fuckin exhausted to write. All I wanna do is pick up the pen and have my rent covered as I scribble away all these thoughts from my head until there’s nothing left but…
Emptiness
I’m too exhausted to write
All I wanna do is write
But I’m so fuckin tired
Tired from two days of work back standing on the feet
It’s been so long and I’m already fuckin exhausted
Characters in my head beating me up for being a fucking pussy
Others chiming in to remind of leg beaters
It’s okay to be tired
But all I wanna do is write, make, and have my least expenses covered without having to break my back
I’m just too tired to write.
But maybe this is the fight.
Or the flight and glide between struggle and ease
The ease of the words that fall from this tongue
But it’s not the tongue this time that writes but the the thumbs that type on this metal one I carry everywhere
Ye I’m too tired for this
But maybe I’m not as I feel the words spill from my gut
I can feel the heatstroke softening
The legs that were stiff now softening
The thoughts it my head that fought now softening
Maybe this is okay
It doesn’t have to be perfect because of this ringing in my head
WRITE EVERYFUCKING DAY
how dare you miss one how you so shit
You can’t even be consistent for a bit
But nah it’s okay
Coz maybe this is all it takes
Just a few words that spill on a trip home from chaos to calm
The opposite of the second law of therma
But for me this is the first
Don’t fight, no perfecto pls, just write man and
Breatheeeee
123
outtttttt
12
And you’re free
Your body has all the clues
The secrets from your past are there
The clues to your future are there
Listen to your body
Feel where the pain is inside and out
Once locked in and onto the point listen deeper
There is a trail to follow
Give in and go
There isn’t much difference between the body and mind as you might think.
If you’re aware it will make itself known.
Just be willing to submit to your own body.
The clues are already there.
They’re just waiting for you to find them.